What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
Today was simple. Woke up early and felt that the day was surprisingly yet sweetly long. I loved it. Went to the gardens and sat in front of the fountain and played Scrabble with my mom. It was a sweet little moment. It rained and we played under the rain. It wasn't until it poured real bad that we seek shelter on the steps of the gigantic Exhibition Center and continued playing there. At about 7pm we headed to the city for dinner with my mister :) Dessert was at Secret Recipe where me and my mom took silly pictures together and laughed til tears rolled from the corners of our eyes and our throats sore from all the laughing!
I had a very very lush cake!!!!!!! Well, we all did. It was the best cake I've tasted since a long time.
If this was to be the last day of my life I'd be very satisfied at how I spent it. It was terrific! I don't know how else to describe it but it was so satisfying and I'm grateful to be in the company of the nicest, sweetest and most understanding of people. You know what I like? I like that. People who listen, who understand, who stop to listen and then to understand. I like that. I fancy a little shake of the head whenever someone doesn't approve of how I choose to live my life because all I get from the many people I converse with is them going with how I flow with things. I have learnt that the only people to believe and trust in is those who don't always sit behind their computers, or stay cooped up indoors watching TV. I learnt to trust those who like going outside and bask themselves in the might of this universe! You know what I mean? You learn so many things from books, songs, films and such but you learn more from your experiences as a human being, dealing with human things.
But of course, with that being said, doesn't mean that the mistakes you make in the past would change you. I don't see why I should trust the person who say they care about me, miss me, and love me when I know in the past they've said the darnest things about me. But me being me, I can't handle the thought of being enemies with people for too long a time. There's always that little devil who'd try to manipulate its way into my mind, nagging me with stuff from the past that'd make me hate a person big time. But I guess there is no darn use for that because I am past that. I'm through with that, and if you have a problem with me being nonchalant well there's nothing I can do about that can I? Would be pretty pleased if you look for someone else to share your hate about something or someone with. Not anymore with me because it has gone stale.
I can't wait to be 30. But if I don't live to be 30, I'd be pleased with myself for being who I am today. I have learnt to be happy even when I'm by myself and that's the best feeling in the world. I don't need to be bitter seeing other people enjoying themselves and living their lives to the fullest because I surely can do the same :) I don't need to pretend to be nice to a person and then say things behind their backs. That is old news and that was the drive to be accepted. Not anymore. I am mature enough to handle all that and push them to the back of my mind. I'm alright and I'll pass on to other things if you so happen do try to get me right back into your realm of wanting to say things that are bad just so you'd feel satisfied about yourself. Goodness, to start with I didn't use to be that kind of person until I was whispered to.
Why delve into that? But for serious, so many pretenders out there. So many fakes. So so soo many.
On another note, I'm so happy that today I get to live with a portion of me that I have been missing for such a loooong time. I love my mom so very much!
You know what, why don't you have that piece of cake and slobber on the icing too? You will understand how sweet life is when you do ;)