Malay, you are in my blood but it's so hard to utter you...

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Nyeh

Nisa Halim

Nisa Halim

Nisa Halim

Wow, finally had the time to actually SIT and put my thoughts into words (I hope). At last I am here sitting in my room at 7.30pm when usually I'd be out sweating away and going back to sleep as early as I can to recuperate for tomorrow's bread-winning. (Dammit what the hell is wrong with the connection tonight, baru jua I want to sit and blog kan. Geez.)

Anyway, I have been working by day and trying to get in shape by night for the past lightyear since I arrived in Brunei. It's no easy matter my friend, I gained ALOTAWEIGHT the three weeks I had visitors in Melbourne and those days were filled with a lot of food and too little exercise! All my effort of going to the gym in the evenings running, striding and cycling away was just wasted like that. Yeah sure it comes just as much as a regret NOW as it was guilt-less at that time of event. I hate thinking about how inconsiderate I was to my own fitness when I've spent too much to shed all those kilos a couple of years ago.

But anyway, I've had comments from friends that I look fitter and healthier as of late - which, face it, brings a lot of tears to my face. Damn, to even begin thinking about going back to being over weight. FOR SHAME! Thank goodness I have the realisation of a thunderous intellectual planetary and the mirror as my biggest enemy, I made the effort to work out and stay on the safe zone. Hate to think about all those who think food is all they have and that they don't need to exercise but goodness me I've been them before and the repercussion was greater than you can ever imagine. Well, minus side is some parts have become more prominent than the rest and that bugs me a little bit but I keep telling myself if Kim can live with it then so can I. Mine ain't even half as bad as hers are so go figure :D AND I refuse to be under weight - also been there. Looking back at all those pictures... eugh... all that hair and all bones with no flesh. Not a good sight.

And in terms of work I have a lot of titles under my name as it is already - I am mainly a sales executive but I am also doing marketing work and helping out with office planning and liaising with contractors and whatnot. It's stressful, yes. But I'm not complaining :D I know sometimes things can get a bit off and some days are just too much but alhamdulillah, this is better than nothing. My friends aren't surprise that I am actually enjoying all this stress but which straight up ghetto person doesn't? HAHA! No, for serious, I am enjoying all the demands, the emails, the requests, the changes of things for every single second to no end. I love my job! Haven't actually told this to anyone but I LOVE MY JOB! Haven't gotten my pay, that's my only complain but that's only a little part of the benefit that I'll be able to bring with me when I do other jobs! AND I LOVE THE TRAVELLING! Sorry to say but all ye who say "Ai jauh jua tu" must give it a try sometimes. You don't bring stress back home because you just cannot maintain a harmonious household that way so when you drive, you volume up and tune out! Let your stress out so as you step off the car when you arrive home, you'll be puffing out a chestful of relief. I do that everyday. I am so thankful!

And to think back to when I used to be so angry about just about anything!

I'm a grown up!

Good thing is I'm not one who strive to please everyone - maybe that's the secret to keeping your stress in control.

Gosh I have a lot more to share but I have guests and Wrestlemania is on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

UNDERTAKER WILL WIN!
BYE!