Nisa Halim

Nisa Halim

InsyAllah.

Just need to remind myself that before I start to mutter under my breath at every single annoying thing that's thrown on my face. But you know, sometimes I can't help it. I am only human with demonic misdemeanors. 

Nisa Halim

I hope everyone's had a blessed week. It's 1 May now, which marks the start of my third month working. There are ups and downs and sometimes I hang in the middle, but most of all I enjoy my time there. It's unlike all the other places I have worked at which means a lot to me and I am very thankful to have been given the opportunity to earn something in return of the stress that I've to go through. Alhamdulillah. Two more months now and my employment will be over. I'm not wallowing but instead I'm ready for the challenges that might befall upon me. 

I believe things happen for a reason - and reasons, may they sometimes be mind-boggling and sometimes just a place in the dark that waits to come out, come in different shapes and sizes and even then these attributes come with their own reasons. Reasons upon reasons of reasons that we don't get and blame on others but you know, things do happen for a reason. 

I am not complaining about this temporary job that I'm working. I don't agree to those people who say that this thing that I'm doing is only worth to be done by those whose qualifications are lower than mine. I did not grow up believing that money grow on trees so don't expect me to act like things are going to just land on my lap by two clicks of my heels. 

So all ye who believe, who are in the same exact position that I am in, all you have to do is believe and dream and when you put your heart into something go and pursue. Just talking and thrashing and blaming is not enough, all those will not do you any justice, it will only make you look dumb and lazy so please, step it up and give us a chance to sit and look at your progress so we could have something to be proud of. I often look forward to meet freshies who are seeking for jobs, whether temporary or voluntary, because they are always ones with fresh colourful ideas and the zest for life that they have always reminds me of how I was five or ten years ago. That is why I so much love hanging out with people from different walks of life and ages, the different take about life and journey to becoming who they want to become is just simply amazing that sometimes it gets me thinking that I should realign my purpose. Which I often do and don't see anything wrong with. The reason why we're made different from one another is so that we'd learn from each other and about one another. Even the Quran says so. It is no reason to diss but love. I learnt that from experience. 

At this very moment, I am set to believe that I am capable of big things. Because I have been given something and I finished it all on my own. That kind of trust that has been given to me has made me believe that even on my own I am able to achieve big things. It may me minor when compared to its primary branch but it is still recognised as something as important. I love the feeling that I'm feeling right now whenever I think about it but at the moment my mind is set to start on something new. 

I do miss doing the usual creative stuff that I do but I guess the thing that I'm doing right now is practicing me to be somebody who should be ready for any sort of criticism thrown my way. Critique bombs. I've practiced since I worked helping revamp a company website and on to the next one and the this one. I'm glad that my work matters enough for people to criticise and I am ever so thankful. Alhamdulillah. This is as much as teaching me to be more patient with other people and also to be hospitable to the needs of people. 

Ahhh.... I love my job and the things that come with it!

Can't say I want to do this forever but at this very moment I am not complaining :)