To begin with, I am THAT person who targets at things and would not be satisfied until they have been met with vigour - sometimes whether I like it or not, for as long as I have completed something at my own will and sweat, I'll be more than satisfied.

So this year, I am turning to a new page and I will not let any bullshit from anyone get to me. I wouldn't even want to begin to care about those people who don't matter a slightest bit to myself. Have been putting that to practice since December the last and it feels liberating! You know, that simpler feeling of being just yourself and not to live to satisfy other peoples' needs and wants - which do nothing but stress you out - and not doing things while the other eye looks at people around awaiting for their approval or the other. A lot of people do that, don't they? We have all come to a conclusion that people who do that are those who likes to be loved because they don't love themselves. Too bad. All the money in the world can't bring you happiness so could you just stop showing your dollars and hoping that somebody'd feel what you'd expect them to feel? Berdosa.

Also, I'd like to practice more on the things that I have long abandoned. There are many. So very many. They come in abundance and of course being me I'd end up doing them halfway and leaving them til they've lost their love for me before coming back to them again. Now that I'm fully free I can definitely put whatever I've put on halt to practice. InsyAllah.

Lastly, prayers, dzikir and doa. More. InsyAllah. If Allah wills.

I'm ready to face the world now, I'm ready to put behind things that happened in the past, I will move forward towards positive energy and I will be zen. So if ever I don't deliver, know that I am only human and I am my own worst enemy. So insyAllah, I hope Allah prolongs my life and let me prosper when I do, so I could support my family with dignity and not because, like other people, I'd like to show-off how many bars of gold I've got. That ain't right.

If you see me in rags, know that I'm preparing for something big and better for myself. Amin yarabbal alamin =)