And I'm gushing smiles from my soul, or so at least I think so LOL!

So I was just reading my friend's blog out of the blue, because he NEVER updates, and suddenly today out of boredom I went on and whaddya know, something to read and trust me, I like what I read :)

I love reading inspiring blogs, blogs that emit positivity and that radical desire to be successful - always talking about facing challenges and NOT wallowing on failure and all that jazz. I LOVE THOSE TYPE! Why? Because I am NOT the type of person who would sit and just listen to you wallow in self pity because you think that what you have achieved in life is not enough. Honey, nothing is ever enough in this world. That is why God gives us brains to think, hands to do stuff with, legs to walk to places, and our senses to feel. God has never ever told us to give on anything and if anything, Islam has always told its believers to not stop believing and surely that is enough to tell us that we're capable of whatever our hearts desire, yes? Yes. We taught to ponder, reflect, change the wrongs, keep the rights and think of many other things that are possible to do in this world. Surely if we always get what we want in terms of materialistic things, then everything else comes as easily? Have you ever thought of it that way?

Another thing that I love is when someone realises that when they want something, they'll work hard to get it. Nothing elates me more than people who are excited to make things happen for themselves. Those who do not succumb to pressure of those who do nothing BUT try to stop them from being successful. Ugh, come to think of it there are so many people in my life who always want to see me crumble and cry and fall down and bleed but heck, my mom taught me not to listen and just prove them wrong. I know a friend do not like to prove anything to anyone and to just do whatever he feels like doing without pleasing anyone but himself, BUT I was raised in a different way. People around me, especially those close enough to comment on how ugly I look with that large zit on my face, sometimes they need to be slapped for always humiliating me in front of everyone but you know I don't need to physically do that. I slap them with proving to them that I am not the loser they think I am. I'm not. You know that too but sometimes you're just too engrossed in envy that you'll be like, "Yeah, Nis. You've put on weight. You're so fat!" Like OMG stop it already! Who are you to tell me that I am nobody and that I should feel bad about myself? I am here now am I not? But where are you? Ahh, karma. Kicks your ass like accidentally biting your own tongue. It hurts.

On the other hand though, what I don't like is those people who are all talk and no action. You know those people who have so many things in their wishlist, they want this and that, want to do this and that but only doing those things to be updated with the change in time. Like when I first got my DSLR I was mocked, "Eh basar jua camera mu atu. Kan jadi reporter ko kah? HA HA HA" but then when it was the HYPE all those people who mocked me ALL had DSLRs and they only wanted those things because everyone else was getting into the photography hype and once the hype died down, where are your cameras, fellas? Chicken shit has a certain amount of time of being hot, so yeah once it cools down you're out there doing something else. Come on, please. Be true to yourself. I hate getting linked to all ye who never finish what you all started. I hate being compared to all you who never seem to give a rest to that bitterness you feel in your heart just because you want something that you can't have. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? Like, OH MY GOD PLEASE!

But you know, all those people who got skills, I hear you. I may not be as good as you are but you all know which type of people I'm talking about. I know, so what if they want to have what they want as long as they have the money because that money isn't even ours but you know what I hate the most? Hearing these said to me, "Nisa, sama ah kesukaan kamu ani, siapa yang mulakan dulu?" HAHAHA siapa yang mulakan dulu. You make me cry! I don't give a tiny rats ass who start what first as long as when I do something I do it for my own cause is enough to make me happy. Kan? Isn't that correct? When you're out there doing your own shit happily, there must be somebody else who'd want to ruin it for you. Makes you want to go all Mr T at them and spit at the fools who aren't cool enough to support you OR accept you for who you are.

And please, don't even get me started on those people whom, upon seeing your achievements, still try to tell you to do something that you aren't passionate about. And then they hold a grudge against you for not wanting to do what they want you to do. Mister, it was painful enough to see your daughter depressed when you promised her something so that she'd do what you ask her to but when she did it you suddenly become scared at how awesome she is so you keep her stranded under your scrutiny. I know you're angry at me for not becoming whom you suggested me to become but heck, I was 18 when you told me to be that thing you wanted me to be and I didn't want to be that. Even now. And I'm turning 25 in less than a month and it still bothers me to think that you will be forever angry at me because I don't want to be that person. Yeah, ok it is true that I will earn 2800 for a start but IT IS NOT ABOUT THE MONEY. What I even want to do in the long term in my life would not even involve money. Does that make me a sad person? Yes. But will I be a more compassionate person than you are? Also yes. Please, do not stop me from doing what I want! Or I'll hate you. I don't want to hate you with passion. No.

There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix them.

OK maybe that's you. Fair enough, I'm going to cut you some slack. But doesn't mean you need to keep being who you are. You definitely can change to be somebody who's a little bit more desirable? Stop being so mean to me. I know what I want in life and if that bothers you so much then I'm sorry.

So kids, moral of the story is that when you set your heart on something, try your best to achieve them. It ain't easy to achieve things immediately, I know that, I have gone through that too but what I've learnt is that if you're a quitter, you will forever be a quitter and be devoid of compassion for those people who are more successful than you. In the end, you'll feel superior amongst those people who you see are less than adequate to you. And that is just TOO sad.

What are we going to do from today on? Set our hearts on something, lead our paths to cross with that thing, work hard for it and be thankful. Stop it already with the dragging other people into your life's misery because it is getting OOOLLLDDD.